♥In Your Life Your  

Always Gonna Get Hurt

You Just Need to Decide

Who'sWorth The Pain ... ♥ 

       NN

 υ єνα нαν тнσzє ∂αу ωєяє уα ∂υи єνєи киσ ωσт ¢нυ ωαит؟

ιf ι ℓєт нιм gσ.. ωιℓℓ ι ℓσѕє нιм fσяєνєя.. σя ωιℓℓ нє яєαℓιѕє нσω мυ¢н нє иєє∂ѕ мє..♥ 

What do you do when someone breaks your heart?

What do you do when no one will understand?

 What are you supposed to do when you can't get away from your problems?

What can you do when life suddenly seems like it's not worth the bother?

What do you do when all you can do is cry all night?

will you still hold me?

I confess, I messed up.

 Everything is [Fukd] up straight from the heart♥ ♥

Gotta pick myself up, where do I start?
♥ ♥  'Cause I can't turn to you when it all falls apart

 

 

 

every second im without you

. . . . .i'm a mess. . . . . 

♥

 

           

 

ωαт ιf υ ѕαω му αям σиє ∂αу
и αℓℓ тнσѕє вℓσσ∂у тяαιℓѕ?
ωιℓℓ υ вє αвℓє тσ υи∂єяѕтαи∂ ωну
ι ¢υт ωєи αℓℓ єℓѕє fαιℓѕ

ωσυℓ∂ υ тєℓℓ мє тσ ѕтσρ тнє ¢υттιиg
в¢σѕ ωнαт ι ∂σ ιѕ ωяσиg
ωσυℓ∂ υ тяу тσ ¢σиνιи¢є мє αgαιи
тнαт яєαℓℓу ι αм νєяу ѕтяσиg

ωιℓℓ υ тєℓℓ мє υтнαωιѕє
ωєи ι ѕαу.. ''υ ωσит υи∂єяѕтαи∂''
αиѕωєя мє тнιѕ qυєѕтισи..
нανє υ єνα ѕαт ωιтн α киιfє ιи уσυя нαи∂?

нανє υ?.. нανє υ єνєи..

єνєи тнσυgнт αвσυт ѕυι¢ι∂є?

 ∂σ υ єνα нανє αиу fυ¢кє∂ υρ ємσтισиѕ

 ∂αт υ αℓωαуѕ тяу тσ нι∂є

нανє υ єνєя ℓσѕт fяιєи∂ѕ

 ¢σѕ ∂α вℓα∂є σf ∂α fυ¢кιиg киιfє

 я υ ѕтυ¢к ιи ∂єєρ ∂єρяєѕѕισи

 αℓωαуѕ тяуиα єи∂ уσ ℓуf

 тнιик ιт σνα тωι¢є

тнιѕ ρσєм ι ωяσтє.. ѕσ ιf υя gυиα ''ѕтєαℓ'' ιт ∂єи.. αтℓєαѕт ℓєανє α тяα¢квα¢к... мωαн

   

                            

haii spunks n spunkette'z.. lmao..
damm iimm funnii.. thought ide chekk inn.. see how allz r goiinn..

now everytime i see u.. im pretend im fine.. la da dar dont forget bout.. oh sorri i forgot i wos writin my blog entry.. LmAo.. i luv dat songg.. mmm de best!! if u dont kno wot i was singin.. its ''dont forget bout us'' by mariah carey.. if u havent heard it i sugest u listen to it asap.. da onlii thing i dont lyk is.. dat guy that speaks in it.. he sounds like mariah's grampa or sumthin.. lol..

omg i jus realised..[always b my baby] to [we belong togetha] to [shake it off] now [dont forget bout us].. its lyk.. do u understand.. its a pattern..wow lol dam it all makes sense.. its his way of tellin me.. lmao.. i knew it! god im smart.. ok u's dont get it do u's?

dont worrii.. he will understand..sumdayz i miss u hunii..  i jus worked out this whole pattern thing.. how weird.. thats wat u were talkin bout the Other day! phew.. n hun i kno ull neva forget bout us.. no matta how much u trii not to care.. i kno we will always b in each others heart!! ehehe..

its it jus so weird how dis world works.. like u meet sumone.. n u lyk em dey like u.. u's r togetha..then bang.. its like they jus walked off the earth..  anyways.. omg my friendz!! the plastic barbies!! i love YOU's so much!!! ..alicia..emma..tahlia..siobhan..sam..nela.. n al my utha babii's u guys r great!!

u's pick me up wen i fall down.. u buy me flowers wen im upset.. n fluffy little little teddy bears wen i cry.. lip gloss jus so we all have matching.. choccies wen im cravin.. letters to make me laugh.. i LOVE u all.. n i look at one of my other friends.. n think.. why am i friends wit her? she embarras's me in front of people.. mocks me to put me down.. ect ect.. the list goes on.. i dun wanna get to into it..

newaiis imma bounce.. take care ya'll.. mwaa.. x0x0x0.. *Luv ashii*

Razor blades so sharp

bleed me  away tears never fukin fade
away... braclets cover up the scars and all you can say is.. ''its gunna be ok''..

               

ello ello ello all u sexii ladies n lads..

 i wos jus readin ma last blog.. n god.. wat a fucked up life i had!!..fark..i didnt even realise how bad it was till now..
well on a better note.. LIFE IS SHINING at the moment.. iim lovin iit..
mii fwends r the most wonderfull.. i luv u'z..
[jodz] [manda] [rissa] [lorrainey] [sheree] [jess] [jay jay]

ii thanx u so much 4 helpin me thru dis crisis.. lol.. u's were der 4 me jus lyk u's promised..
n im so grateful to hav u speacial lil munckins in mii life..
 the boii dat made my lyf a living hell.. is far far away now.. :o) ...
i gots a new hair do happenin..n i got a fringe lol iim stil gett'n used 2 it..
new style of clothes.. iim sik of my pretty lil pink style wit my pretty lil uggies hehe
iim lookin hotta den eva.. lolz.. jokin jokin..

i went 2 a party last SATaDaii nyt.. it was the best party EVA!! i had so so so much fun!!.. and no.. no gurl kissing this time.. sorrii boizz.. lol...
i got so drunk dat mii ex daniel had 2 look after me the whole nite..
Awww hes such a sweetie.. he even kissed me on the forehead and tucked me into bed awww... anyways.. back to the story... LOL
Spendin that nite wif him made me realise how much i missed him.. hes such a beautiful soul...

So i aLso hAd a fight on the weekend.. On wetHa dorito's or twisties are bettEr!!! dorito's R the totaL bomb.. who cood not agreE!!! if u think diff... then TeLL sum1 else ur problems.. MwAhEhE.. oh.. n i would also to put out A [RE]minder 2 all my friends.. that its MY BIRTHDAY in a month and 10 days... yah yah!!!!! oh n i smelt the paris hilton purfume today OH MY GOD it is totally hott.. hint* hint*.. hehe... :D

And GurLz!! arent we all gettin so sick off.. u guyz sayin u want more sex.. god god god... WHAT DO YOU THINK WE ARE.. fukn sex machines... grrr... u's only last for lyk 5 mintues anyway...!! ok im guna get attack now.. but its so tru!! losers.. hehe hehe.. not all guys but most!! well 4 all mii gurlzz i wos wif on fri nyt... our conversation is now open.. lol...


well well darlings.. thats all from 'me' 2nyt... i hope u enjoyed the show and ill be back next week with the lastest news from munro paridise.. *LOL* i dont wanna go... imm in such a crazii mood... agghhh... ok ok ok im goiing...

Love u aLL !!! stay happii!! take care!! and stay real !!

*[ Luva always pwiincess ashii ]* x0x0.. x0x0.. *peace*..

                                   

hey all my lil hunii pies.. how r u all..
well i kno i cant hear ur answer.. but i hope ur all smilin n happii.. :)
ok.. my life? well ive been listenin to missy higgins album ''The Sound Of White'' for the last 3 days.. seems as tho everyword she sings should be coming out of my mouth.. shes amazing.. and sings things jus how they are.. well bac to me.. lol.. oh i hate to be self centered lol.. im... hmmm.. if only i could find a word for the way im feeling.. im sure there is a word for it.. jamie help please.. lol.. jamie's good with big words and there meanings.. but neways.. maybe YOU can find the word if i tell u the details..
hav you eva stayed in bed the whole day cos u didnt wanna face the world..? Or u jus didnt wanna get up cos ur mum might see the scars on ur arms from last nights attempt to end ur life?.. Is it stupid to not wanna change ur sheets jus becos it wos the last place u and him lay besides each other..? Everywhere u look theres memorys of him.. him? a male.. a stupid guy.. a god dam guy.. jus another person in this world.. how dare that person seem to be in control YOUR emotions..? Every song u listen to seems to remind you of him in one way or another.. Everyday is a struggle.. u cant eat.. u cant even sleep... u jus lay in bed stairin at the walls almost as if there blank.. The room u once loved to be in u can no longer stand bein in.. ur pages of peoms u can no longer read.. there smeared and the ink is all run.. its like uve dunked them into a bucket of water.. but instead there all the tears that have fell from inside.. the words keep echoing inside ur head.. the last time he said '' i love you''.. Are u susposed to forget the last kiss that you and him shared togetha.. i guess ill be a hero the day i finally get thru all this.. i dont think im a loser for showing my tru feelings.. i beleive im a human jus tryin to get thru ''EVERYDAY LIFE''..

Take Care u beautiful lil souls.. ill always b here 4 u's... jus lyk uve been 4 me..
                   ..0x0x  *[ Luv Always Pwiincess Ashii ]*  x0x0..

                                        ..    *BrEaKn iit Up*    ..

2 c ur face jus pass me by.. makes me feel as tho all i want 2 do is cry..
The dayz i see u they becum more tough..as i kno ur heart becums more rough..
I kno dat i mean nothin to u now.. but i will make it thru.. sumway.. sumhow..
U say u dont luv me.. but how kan that be?..
I kno dat i hurt ur heart n ur soul.. but witout u i jus dont feel whole..
U dRoPpEd me 4 sumone new.. n i hav dun the same thing 2..
Even tho i am with him today.. my heart.. i kno in depth.. must pay..
I hav wronged u 2 much before.. so now we hav both become 2 sore..
U told me dat u want to move on.. but i dont want u 2 b gone..
I kno there is nothin i can do.. but ill still leave u wit this.. i LoVe yOu.. xXx..

                                

fo all u gurlz..

find a guy who..

• calls u beautiful instead of hot...                                           
• calls u back wen u hang up on him
• will stay awake just to watch u sleep
• kisses u on the forhead                                             
• holds ur hand in front of his friends                                                            
• wants 2 show u off to da world even in ur trackies
• thinks ur jus as pretty without ur make-up on
• is constanly reminding u bout how much he cares bout u
• says how lucky he is to hav u

wait for the guy who turns to his friends and says...... '' Thats Her, that is my girl''..

                 
my lifes a mess.. my worlds fukn crazy..

my wrist r bleedin' god its so hazy..

im slowly guna fade away.. not 2 c anotha day..

its realli gettn hard 2 breath..

2 bad we dont talk nomore..

 i probably woodnt b layin on mah bedroom floor

but now itz 2 late.. derz nuffin u can do..

my eyez r bloodshot.. my lipz r blue..

we realli shoodnt of had dat fight.. for i cud stil b livin 2nyt..

dont blame urself.. the problem is me.. i screwed up mi lyf..

in the worst possible ways.. god thinkin of tha old dayz..

oh well.. my timez up n i realli gotta go..

ill luv u 4eva.. but i know u already know..

 

*.. i wRoTe diiS aboUt mii speciAL 1.. he knOs whO he is..*

 

                         

heyy people..

how are u all?.. hope ur all lil happii chappiies.. ehehe.. well i thought ide write in again.. so all you board people out there can hear about my exciting life!!.. ehehe.. pppffttt not even.. :) but anyways.. guess what!! i nilly blew up my house today..  i pulled out my stove so i could clean behind it.. and haha.. i broke this cord thing.. and we got a gas leak.. owww... whoopsie hehe.. everytime i TRY to do something good.. it always turns out to be bad.. so i give up.. ehehe.. neways.. alot of people hav been asking bout me n *[ dii3gO ]*.. n yes we hav broken up.. sad sad sad isnt it.. lol.. were still friends so thats good.. thank god.. for my 2 beautiful friends.. * jodez * 'n' * jamiie *.. who always seem to be there exactly wen i need themm.. i luv u gurlz.. n woodnt kno wot to do without you!!.. ive been readin thru sum of my close friends blogs lately.. n neva knew that they felt so strongly bout certain things.. good on u guys.. i luv people that stand up 4 there own rights.. n speak there minds.. i guess thats why there my friends..  imma publish sum of my peoms on here 2.. hmm i didnt wanna at first but i have to due to my friends requests.. hehe..

 Anyway munchkins.. imma bounce.. take care u special lil darlings.. ehehe mwaäh..

Oh n.. RIP tupac.. i luv u buddy.. mmmwwwäää.. ur a legend.. x0x0..

                                                            

                                                           
                                               
hey hunniies..

well iim so0 boArd.. sO i decided to make my '' Own Space ''.. hhehe.. well lyfs gettin a tiny bit betta.. xcept i broke up wif my boyfriend a couple of dayz ago.. :( but otha den dat.. everythinz still the same.. im still a lil deviL.. n Luv 2 hav fun.. ehehe.. i kinda wEnt thrU diis serious stage..for a couple of months.. but den realised it wos totally not me.. im too loud n proud to b serious.. wen my ex started to cut his wrist..thats wen i got all serious.. thats what made me unhappy.. i guess i couldnt laugh or joke around and be my usual self wen he was going thru something so painful.. but anywayz..i guess this is life.. n person cant be normal without problems.. anyway darlings sorii 2 cut it short.. but i gotta cruize.. i secretly do hav a lyf u kno ;) hehehe take care evry1.. n stay real.. luv u all... mwa mwa

 Luv Always *[ pwiincess ashii ]* x0x0.. x0x0.. *peace*